Motown 25th anniversary 1983: The Jackson 5
I know what a joy Michael and his big brother Jermaine felt when they hugged eachother on stage after the performance was over. Two loving brothers, best friends 'til the end..
Billie Jean
Billie Jean has been one of the most played songs trough all time and also the breaktrough for Michael at the 25th anniversary of Motown in 1983 ("Motown 25: Yesterday, Today and Forever)". What most of you (I think) don't know, is why the song was made.
In 1981 Michael got a letter from a female fan who claimed that he was the father of her child. She also sent him pictures of herself and the baby. The girl was pretty, black female in her teen years, who he had never even met. This was a common thing for Michael as he recived lots and lots of similar letters from fans, so he let it be, didn't thinf of it much. This girl though didn't give ut easily. She kept on writing to Michael, saying she loved him and that she thought it would be wonderful raising their shild together.
A couple of months went by, and she still kept on writing him, now saying that the baby started to look like like him, how similar their eyes were and so on. Michael now started to have nightmares about the girl and was constantly walking around being scared. He was imagined finding in their front yard or in his house.
Finally, one day, he got a package, from her of course. In the package there was a photo of her, from her high school graduation. He aslo found a gun, with a note saying she would kill herself on a certain, her and her baby, and she asked Michael to do the same thing, on the same day at the same time. She said that they could meet in the next life and live happily after. At this point Michael was real scared. He took the photo and framed it. He put it in the livingroom where he could always see it, so that he would remeber her face, in case she would show up. Luckily, she never showed up. Michael later found out that the disturbed girl ended up in a insane asylum.
So Michael was writing the song with the obsessed fan on his mind. Some say that he was thinking of his father too when he wrote the song, about the relationship that he was keeping secret from Michael and his brothers, and Katherine (Michael's mother). Which ended up with an half-sister for Michael and the others.
That's the story about Billie Jean
And here's the performance Michael did on the 25th anniversary of Motown. Just fantastic! Enjoy
Petition for MJ to sing for James Bulger
"I have started this petition in hopes it will get enough signatures for Michael Jackson to consider singing the song "Heal The World" in memory of James Bulger at one of his upcoming London, UK shows. I am also hoping it will bring attention to a very important cause in James's memory. The signatures collected will be sent to Michael Jackson's Production company, MJJ Productions before July 2009 when his tour begins. For those unfamiliar with the case, James Bulger was a 2 year old boy that was kidnapped, tortured, and murdered by two 10 year old boys in Liverpool, England on February 12th 1993. According to James's mother Denise, his favorite song was "Heal The World" and James used to dance like Michael Jackson. In 2008 when James would have turned 18 years old, Denise helped start a campaign to open a Red Balloon Learner Centre in Liverpool for children so badly bullied they can no longer attend mainstream school. The school is to be named James Bulger House. Please sign my petition in honour of James Bulger and his family. I would also like to mention that James's mother Denise will be attending one of Michael Jackson's concerts this summer so please help make this a reality! Thank you! Ali Lightfoot"
The link to the petitition:
http://www.facebook.com/l.php?u=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.ipetitions.com%2Fpetition%2Fmjsingforjamesbulger%2F&h=838a2f32099eceaa17d69112cedc3db0
All my thoughts and love goes to little James and his mother Denise. May he rest in peace and I wish you, Denise, a life filled with happieness ♥
in a dreamworld
I don't want school, I don't want the homeworks, the tests and I barely don't want work. I don't want to be bothered by people. I just want to sit all day, calmly, listening to "The Jackson 5 - Just a little bit of you", and read my book "Michael Jackson: The magic and the madness, by J.Randy Taraborrelli". I just want to engage myself totally to Michael. Just read and write. Daydream and don't be bothered by the outside world.
I've become so attached by Michael again after the news had broken out about his comeback. I've always loved Michael and cared for him. His music has always been played at my house and I've been thinking of him from time to time. But now, when he came back to us, I feel I want to engage myself even more and fulfil my dream, to meet him. He facinates me, and every new chapter in the book keeps me wanna know more. The more I read it, the more it feel's like I get to know him. I've already read a lot of things I never knew or even could have imagined. This blog has become a way for me to express my feelings, to share my joy for him with others and most importantly, be here to listen to you guys. I love all of your stories, and I love that with you, I don't have to feel like an alien. When I express myself to others, in school or whatever, of how I love Michael, or of something new that's come up concerning him, they either say something hurtful, give me a strange look like " you're just too much" or worst of all, they don't say anything. They don't give me the joy and reaction that I need to hear, but you all do! So thank you for that. We really need to find like-minded in order to really feel at home. To be able to express what we need to and to feel like we can be understood.
I have almost stoped talking about Michael in public cause I've become sick and tired of having to defend him, all the time. It hurts me when people come with accusations, and they really don't have anything to base it on. I'd like people to become more understanding to one another, and respect our different opinions, and feelings. People shouls really try to understand first and do a research before they judge. And stop making us look like idiots just because we've found joy in something so wonderful as a person, and yes, who we've never met. I wouldn't be writing or saying these things if I wouldn't feel the way I do. I really do feel so strong about this and I wish you would understand, or at least give it a try. It wouldn't hurt to try.
You're just too good Michael, too good.
If you have a book that you'd like to share with me, please do. Do you ?
Anyone can be lonely, even the most seen ones
It might be hard for people to understand how someone so famous, always surrounded by great people and fans, can still be so loneley. I don't know if he still is, but he used to. Everyone told Michael how happy he must be for having such a wonderful life, with all the success. I can understand his lonelyness. Although he was always in the center, surrounded by people, he probably felt he couldn't trust people anymore. It's not strange considering what he's been trough all his youth, being let down and lied to by grown-ups over and over, ever since he was a little kid. He was learned that it was ok to lie when he was just about 8-9 years old (in showbiz, but anyway..). His father who continually cheated on Michael's beloved mother, the disapointment he felt to his best friend and brother (Jermaine), and not to forget the abuse he was put through by Joseph (Michael's father), sometimes on a daily basis. The childhood that was completely taken away from him, no wonder he acts like a child now, several years later.
Michael once told Jane Fonda (who's a great friend of Micheal) that he felt so miserable and that he was having a terrible life. This was during the 1980's. Michael was afraid to move out of the house where he was living with his big family, he feared he'd end up all alone. Sometimes he took a walk around the neighbourhood to find someone just talk to, that's how lonely he felt. It just brings such sorrow to my heart to hear that.
I know that feeling, when you know you have people around you, who say they care, but you still feel like the loneliest person in the world. There's something missing, for sure. And for Michael, he felt like he was from an other world, no place to feel secure. But I think what hurt him the most, was the upbringing in general by his father. It couldn't have been easy for a poor 9 yearold to be taken to a stripclub by his dad, while his mother, who he loved so so much (and of course still does), was at home unknowing of what was going on. He was forced to lie to his mother about his father's affairs, because of the fear of his dad, but also because he knew how hurt his mother would have been if she were to find out. Just think of it, how would you turn out to be if you, your whole growing up, was to be treated this way? Would you be a perfect sane person, like a "normal" person? I don't think so. We get hurt, and it stick with us our whole lives. Even though he was brought up this way, he always smiled and tried to make the best for people, and he still is. He might aswell have turned out to an abuser himself, but instead he's a man who stands for peace on earth.
It's a proof that all the money and fame in the world wont make you happy..
"We'll never forget michael.."
I just love the response I've got since I started this blog. It has given me more than I had expected, you make me so happy all of you. Thank you all ♥
" Hello :)
I'm a member from this forum, and I just had to say I read ur blog about Michael..I was completely blown away.
I sat there thinking Michael would of been so proud of you if he read it, and so appreciated and touched by your words..
You are a true MJ fan, and you always will be... i think thats one charm us fans have.. we'll NEVER forget Michael... till the end of our time! :)
Please do accept my friend request, I'll be honored of you do.
xxx MJ Forever xxx "
" Hi Sara,
I just red about what you said about Michael jackson and everything is so true! I'm so angry that so many people just believe of everything that we see in the news ...for me all this is just a plot! there is a book about that accually...! anyway..thank you for your love to the king of pop! And its verry difficult to know how we fell when we listen to him but a think his song put us on a another planet and we are just feeling great and free! And he is also a good man and a real child even if he's 50 years old! I saw something on youtube...we was saying that he wants one day be able to do something like everybody else, like do his grocery!!! a man like him cannot go anyware without be attact by his fan for an authograph! so they had to close the grocery just for him and he did his shopping and there was actors who were likes custumers! that a crazy life and we have to give him respect for all he did for his fans and for all he has to support because of his popularity and all the thing he had done for the entire world and the childrens!!
Take care! "
Hope
I just found out that one of my closest friend's boyfriend met with Michael's manager last week for a buissnes meeting. I'm just as happie as I can be right now, life's just great sometimes. Talk about chocking news..
"The changes that it brought in him became permanent"
Michael was suffering from what I can understand, pretty bad acne during his youth. He didn't wanna go outside the house many times and he had difficulties talking to people. He always looked down or away, trying not to make eye contact. He didn't wanna see that they saw. During some time he didn't even look at his mother when they used to speak. During his time on stage you couldn't tell that he had a problem with himself because of the perfect covering makeup and well adjusted light. Offstage was worse, then you could really tell that he was uncomfortable and had great complexions. It was hard for Michael. To him it was humiliating when people used to coment about it, he knew it too well anyway, they didn't have to say anything. He says that it subconsciously set scars in his selfconfidence and ability to socialize with people later on. "I got very shy and emarrased to meet people. The effect on me was so bad that it messed up my whole personality." His mother, Katherine says: "The changes that it brought in him became permanent. He was no longer a carefree, outgoing, devilish boy. He was quieter, more serious and more of a loner."
I, too, suffer from severe acne, but I'm fortunate to finally have gotten medication now. It really is hard to live with, most people wouldn't know. Almost everyone has had acne during their teenage years, but it's a differens between ordinary puberty acne and the more severe type. As Michael, it has prevented me from doing a lot things in my life, because it brought me such shame and knocked out my selfconfidence, real bad. I started to be able to live with my disease and trained my confidence, but I couldn't really exlude it entirely, it was still there, bugging me. My acne is very well improved, I have only about two months left on my treatment, and soon it'll be gone, forever.
So in this case, I can really say that I know what he's been trough and how it's affected us. It sticks to you real bad, and some people, never really recoveres..
Quizz: What kind of michael jackson fan are you?
On this website there's a quiz called "What kind of Michael Jackson fan are you?" :
http://www.quizilla.com/quizzes/774052/what-kind-of-michael-jackson-fan-are-you
My result:
"You're an emotional fan! You're the type of fan who screams louder than anyone else at concerts and cries so hard that you need to be taken away in a stretcher.
Michael is really a huge part of your life right now. Chances are, you're a teenage girl. You're in love with him beyond what words can express, and every day you're more and more frustrated because he'll never know how you feel. You feel like nobody understands how much you love him sometimes, but hey! We're all here for you, girl! Believe it or not, there are a few people out there who love Michael as much as you, and believe it or not, one day you're going to calm down, take a look at this obsession, and realize that as much as you love Michael, you can't let that love take away from your happiness. You'll always love him, but on a much more healthy level. Don't let yourself get too caught up."
I think it explaines pretty good how it is haha (except for the teenager part though hahaha) ! I'm satisfied with the answear, they know very well how things are regarding my relation to Michael : ) But I don't know if i'll ever calm down !
The Jackson 5: I want you back
What an evening
We were singin along to all the songs and groovin to the music. It's really amazing that we still know the lyrics by heart, I'll know them ever better in August (!!!). Mamal told me he's an ass kicker on the dancefloor when he get's a couple of shots of tequila and hears Billie Jean from the speakers. I'd LOVE to see that, he tells me he's awesome when he starts to dance, does all the moves. I'm just all excited to see that! I don't know my moves any longer, but I'm sure I can learn them easily again.
We agreed on paying Michael a little visit when we come to London, we're gonna try to get a glimse of his new home. Just knowing his home is somewhere there, so close, that'll be just to unreal for me. Im SO exciited!
The highlight of the concert was when Michael had just finished "She's Out of My Life" and BAM (!!) comes "I Want You Back", a real oldie, I just love it !
You know when "She's Out of My Life" beginns, and he picks a girl up on stage (gosh I envy her for that short moment) and she throws herself on him and he hugs her. It looks so loving. Mamal said to me at that momen: "Imagine to get a hug from him, that would just be amazing". I answered him with a kind: "I wonder what that would be like. If maby one hug from him would change my life forever, like i'd get all filled up with so much love from him, i'd be able to live on it for the rest of my life"."What a feeling", Mamal said. "I wouldn't be able to let go". Our love for him is so strong, and I'm happy I found someone in my life who knows me, who knows what I'm feeling when I see Michael perform or when I hear him on the radio. It's not an everyday feeling, it's soo much more. I want to tell the whole world how I feel inside when I think of Michael. I want everyone to know that it is possible to love someone you've never even met, but someone who has somehow turned your life upside down. When my father died, I was 7 years old.. My life went into millions peices. I didn't know how to express what I kept inside. But I found safety, and a way to finally ease my broken heart. That's when Michael entered my life. Of course I miss my father and nothing in the world can replace the loss of him (I love you with all my heart daddy, I think of you always and I will never ever forget, you're always in me, forever), but somehow Michael filled a big part of that loss and gave me joy, a lot of joy. I don't really think my mom knows, still, how much he really means to me, I don't think anyone does actually, except for the other true fans.
It's incredible how he's affected my life so much, by not even being present a bit. I want to understand this mystery and find the answears hidden behind all of our questions, and i'd like to be able to understand Micheal, what he really feels. This connection between him and his fans is nothing like we've ever seen before. Why? How is that? Why is it that one by one during his concerts fainth just by the sight of him, crying their eyes out, ripping their hair. Fighting like animals for a hat he's thrown out in the sea of people. I'm not saying I wouldn't do that, I'll get back from London all cried out, without a voice, and I'll be happy as I've never been before, I'm sure.
I just want to let everyone know what a strong affection I feel for him. And I wish everyone to feel the kind of love that I feel. The happyness I feel within me when I just think of him. He's something, he really is. He, himself, is a hope for the human being. He, himself, is all the joy in our world. If we all could be a little bit more like Michael, the world would be a much more pleasant place to live in, im sure.
Remember to smile, and show your next one what life's really about. To show love, unconditionally. Turn to the one next to you and just smile, tell her or him it's a great day, just to be alive. Be thankful. Thank you for all you've given me, it's well kept in my heart.
Be thankful you all.
I love you ♥ I love you so much
Stop the talkin and act human
I've been thinking a lot about Michael Jackson's children and how come they're white. People speculate and say they're not his because a black person cannot have white children. They say they are his because they've seen such a thing before. And you know what I think, I don't care. What difference does it make if they're his or not? Millions of people get have children and that's just it. Unwanted children, abused children, lonely children. We're talking about being so color friendly, but really we're not. And what gives us the right to even say that he's a good father or not because his children might not be his. Well they're his now, cause the most important thing is to love someone unconditionally and stand up for your children, help them and give them the best conditions you can. I don't know anything about Michael's life, the only thing we hear is what people and the press thinks, not the real thing. Unless someone gives me the facts that prove a person's done a bad act, I'll allways belive in the best in people.
Give up the whether-it's-his-children-or-not discussion and do something more important with your time. Michael allways talks good about people and I require everyone to do so too, for a better world. You could actually learn something. We're living in the 2000 century and I think we should see by now that the media say almost anything (moslty untrue) to get our attention. We all have our own will and can chose for ourselves, what to belive. Try not to be so easily affected.
The way you make me feel
Hee! - hee!
Ooh!
Go on girl!
Aaow!
Hey pretty baby with the high heels on
You give me fever
Like I've never, ever known
You're just a product of loveliness
I like the groove of your walk
Your talk, your dress
I feel your fever
From miles around
I'll pick you up in my car
And we'll paint the town
Just kiss me baby
And tell me twice
That you're the one for me
The way you make me feel
(The way you make me feel)
You really turn me on
(You really turn me on)
You knock me off of my feet
(You knock me off of my feet)
My lonely days are gone
(My lonely days are gone)
I like the feelin' you're givin' me
Just hold me baby and I'm in ecstasy
Oh I'll be workin' from nine to five
To buy you things to keep you by my side
I never felt so in love before
Just promise baby, you'll love me forevermore
I swear I'm keepin' you satisfied
'Cause you're the one for me
The way you make me feel
(The way you make me feel)
You really turn me on
(You really turn me on)
You knock me off of my feet
Now baby - hee!
(You knock me off of my feet)
My lonely days are gone -
A - acha - acha
(My lonely days are gone)
Acha - ooh!
Go on girl!
Go on! Hee! Hee! Aaow!
Go on girl!
I never felt so in love before
Promise baby, you'll love me forevermore
I swear I'm keepin' you satisfied
'Cause you're the one for me...
The way you make me feel
(The way you make me feel)
You really turn me on
(You really turn me on)
You knock me off of my feet
Now baby - hee!
(You knock me off of my feet)
My lonely days are gone
(My lonely days are gone)
The way you make me feel
(The way you make me feel)
You really turn me on
(You really turn me on)
You knock me off of my feet
Now baby - hee!
(You knock me off of my feet)
My lonely days are gone
(My lonely days are gone)
Ain't nobody's business
Ain't nobody's business
(The way you make me fell)
Ain't nobody's business
Ain't nobody's business but
Mine and my baby
(You really turn me on)
Hee hee!
(You knock me off of my feet)
Hee hee! Ooh!
(My lonely days are gone)
Give it to me - give me some time
(The way you make me feel)
Come on be my girl - I wanna
Be with mine
(You really turn me on)
Ain't nobody's business
(You knock me off of my feet)
Ain't nobody's business but
Mine and my baby's
Go on girl! Aaow!
(My lonely days are gone)
Hee hee! Aaow!
Chika - chika
Chika - chika - chika
Go on girl! - Hee hee!
(The way you make me feel)
Hee hee hee!
(You really turn me on)
(You knock me off of my feet)
(My lonely days are gone)
(The way you make me feel)
(You really turn me on)
(You knock me off of my feet)
(My lonely days are gone)
♥
Give in to me
Bad 1987, the year I was born
♥
This is a really nostalgic picture, for most of us, and especially for me. I remember when I was about 10-11, and I was practising, on a daily basis, all the moves. Bad was my favourite one when I danced. My mom bought me a pair of leather pants and a white shirt, I curled my hair and I was good to go, up on stage. I appeared a couple of times on after-school in front of parents and and the other kids, with my background dancers and all, and everyone loved me :) Of course they did, I was a natural, Michael would have loved me ha-ha!
I remember my teachers helped me a lot getting all the moves right, we kept on rewinding that darn VHS over and over :D I wanted to do it all so perfect, and that's still how I am today. You know that move when they're all standing in a line, with Michael in the middle, and they were kond of shuffeling forward, looking to the side, the front, the side, the front. Aaw maan, I remeber it like it was yesterday. I miss being a kid, life was to less of a complicated thing back then. And you know the fist, straight hand, fist, straight hand.. "You know I'm Bad (fist) I'm Bad (straight hand) I'm really really (fist) Baad (straight hand)..!" I knew all the lyrics, I made paintings of him and went out to the streets to sell them. My young room were covered with him and my CD player was constantly playing his songs.
One day (of many similar days) I was sitting at my desk in school, day dreaming my boring lesson away. My birthday was coming up in a couple of days, and I was looking at the classroom door. I could see Michael come in and stand in the doorway, and he sang. Just for me. He sang happy birthday for me.
This was during the time when Michael had his last concert in Sweden and I remeber begging my mom to go with me. She told me I was too young, that hit me hard, but I was just looking forward to his next show back in Sweden. But he never came. He never came anywhere. I kind of lost all hope in seeing him live, ever. But I guess I was wrong people cause whaat do I see when I turn on the neews March 6 ! The king has returned to the people. This is just too good to be true. I belive this is ment for me, to get one more chance to see my biggest idol, my Michael.
Gosh I just love Michael in this picture, I wish he would have stayed that way. But it's too late now, and the past is the past. Still, it's the inside that counts, right?
goodnight Michael, love you
♥
goodnight Michael, love you
Michael's new improved look
I have to say that Michael was looking unusually fresh and healthy at the press release March 9, 2009. I haven't seen him look this good in a long long time, since the operations never seemed to have an end. I really hope he'll stay the way he is because he looks really fine now! Like the good old days : )
